Sunday, January 11, 2009

Tomorrow is the Day

At 10 a.m I am supposed to report to the hospital to have my gallbladder removed.
I am a bit nervous about it, but I wasn't feeling actually scared. I think I am most nervous about getting all the preop instructions right, getting to the hospital, what to wear, and having some things done at home so I won't have to worry about it later - timing mostly. I have friends praying for me.

And then I start having second thoughts because of things I've read, and I am talking to someone at church who's husband did a "gallbladder purge" instead, (had to do it twice) about 5 years ago. Because I think the circumstance is somewhat
different, I'm not sure that would be the best thing for me, but should I have tried it? I hate these second thoughts.

I used to sidewalk counsel outside abortion clinics and the one thing I would tell women is it's still not too late to change their minds. Just because you have an appointment doesn't mean you have an obligation to undergo surgery. So, I was thinking that I need to be careful to remember that. Still, my WBC was high, and maybe it should have been out already. I have a 2 cm gallstone (not exactly tiny) and things haven't been right for a while.

I know I will have to change my diet, either way. I am already trying to work on that end of things. In the end, I know I am planning to go ahead with the surgery, but I hate all of the doubts.

I think I will leave this one in God's hands and pray for the best. HE knows what it is. I have no idea. So, if the surgeon suddenly can't be there, maybe I'll take it as a sign? LOL

Pray for me tomorrow.



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